all good things come to an end.

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go,
I'm standing here outside the door,
I hate to wake you up to say good bye.
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn'in,
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn.
Already I'm so lone some I could die.

So kiss me and smile for me,
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
Cause I'm leavin on a jet plane,
Don't know when I'll be back again.
Oh babe, I hate to go.

Now the time has come to leave you,
One more time let me kiss you,
Then close your eyes, I'll be on my way.
Dream about the days to come,
When I won't have to leave you alone,
About the times I won't have to say.

It is so hard to leave..

It is so hard to leave – until you leave. And then it’s the easiest goddamned thing in the world.

(John Green)

All my life I wanted to spend my gap year after high school abroad.

Go away from the rat race at home, feel the freedom, be independent.

I decided to go to Brighton for five months to have the best time of my life. I knew it would be the best time ever because my elder sister had been to England several years ago and was just elated afterwards, I was sure with me it would not be different.

To prepare my trip in the best way possible I had worked for half a year as a waitress so my parents would not need to pay the whole amount of money. And on the other hand I did not want to take care about the money all the time, I just wanted to enjoy my life as far as possible. 

Some month before I went to England I booked the flight, the school and a host family.

Some days before I bought all the things I would need there and packed my suitcase.

And some hours before I just felt tense, excited and extremely nervous.

I had no idea what was going to wait for me and even if I was really looking forward to this day I just felt a bit afraid and sad to leave.

Nevertheless I was really happy I could leave my home, some things changed, my home changed, even I changed and I was ready to take a new step towards a new life.

Suddenly this day was here. This day I dreamed about for years.

And I knew this was going to change my life.

And it did.

My family took me to the train station and we all had to cry, it was horrible. But then I waved goodbye and suddenly it took a load off my mind and when the train was leaving I just smiled.

I felt liberated, ready for a new beginning.

After a few hours by train, airplane, taxi I arrived in my new house and I was welcomed with open arms. And there it was, my new life, in Brighton.

Loving you is like a cherry pie.

I need to know that it's possible that two people can stay happy together forever.

In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are.

Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you,

the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass.

That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.

Time after time

I will never love anyone the way that I love you. Never. You know that, and I know that, and I will die knowing that, ok? But it just can never... it just can never, ever, forever be. Do you understand? It just can never, ever, forever be.

Paulie: Liar! Liar, Liar, Liar! You've all got your heads up your assholes because love is. It just is and nothing you can say can make it go away because it is the point of why we are here, it is the highest point and once you are up there, looking down on everyone else, you're there forever. Because if you move, right, you fall. You fall.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind...?

I am here for you if you'd only care.

We could be so much more.

That was the thing..

..you never get used to it,

the idea of someone being gone.

...just when you think it's reconciled, accepted,

someone points it out to you,

and it just hits you all over again, that shocking.

And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

 

To act and damn the consequence.

How I wish it could be that easy

But fear surrounds me like a fence

I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair

To face the fear but not feel scared

Every book you read is a step closer.

Love changes, changes everything.

Love makes the rules, from fools to kings.

Make your dreams come true.

I want you.

I need you in my world.

Chuck: "The world would be easier if I didn't come back."

Blair: "That's true. But it wouldn't be my world without you in it."

I want to be the cherry on the top.

I think reality is over-rated.

Everything will be ok in the end.

If it's not, it's not the end.