Freitag, 17. Juni 2011

It is so hard to leave..

It is so hard to leave – until you leave. And then it’s the easiest goddamned thing in the world.
(John Green)

All my life I wanted to spend my gap year after high school abroad.
Go away from the rat race at home, feel the freedom, be independent.
I decided to go to Brighton for five months to have the best time of my life. I knew it would be the best time ever because my elder sister had been to England several years ago and was just elated afterwards, I was sure with me it would not be different.
To prepare my trip in the best way possible I had worked for half a year as a waitress so my parents would not need to pay the whole amount of money. And on the other hand I did not want to take care about the money all the time, I just wanted to enjoy my life as far as possible. 
Some month before I went to England I booked the flight, the school and a host family.
Some days before I bought all the things I would need there and packed my suitcase.
And some hours before I just felt tense, excited and extremely nervous.
I had no idea what was going to wait for me and even if I was really looking forward to this day I just felt a bit afraid and sad to leave.
Nevertheless I was really happy I could leave my home, some things changed, my home changed, even I changed and I was ready to take a new step towards a new life.
Suddenly this day was here. This day I dreamed about for years.
And I knew this was going to change my life.
And it did.
My family took me to the train station and we all had to cry, it was horrible. But then I waved goodbye and suddenly it took a load off my mind and when the train was leaving I just smiled.
I felt liberated, ready for a new beginning.
After a few hours by train, airplane, taxi I arrived in my new house and I was welcomed with open arms. And there it was, my new life, in Brighton.

Mittwoch, 15. Juni 2011

I need to know that it's possible that two people can stay happy together forever.

In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are.
Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you,
the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass.
That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.

Sonntag, 12. Juni 2011

I will never love anyone the way that I love you. Never. You know that, and I know that, and I will die knowing that, ok? But it just can never... it just can never, ever, forever be. Do you understand? It just can never, ever, forever be.

Paulie: Liar! Liar, Liar, Liar! You've all got your heads up your assholes because love is. It just is and nothing you can say can make it go away because it is the point of why we are here, it is the highest point and once you are up there, looking down on everyone else, you're there forever. Because if you move, right, you fall. You fall.